Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in ¤When ur not afraid of death u tend to want it¤'s LiveJournal:

Sunday, March 30th, 2003
9:42 am	:: thats the last time i pass myself out>. well i passed my self out when i was away on the computer and had this dream this vampire guy was like kiss down my leg then bit my tough and i woke up wit my foot bleed...no wound though...:S LMAO who ever reads this journal is gonna think im fuckin insane.>. Current Mood: indescribable (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:35 am	::Perfect song for what i feel like.. *Dead from all the lonelyness understanding everything has never been my deal...maybe you have crossed my path to live inside my mind or maybe your the reason why im losin all my decency..* -=--=-=-=- hmm its weird i feel bored but i dunno why am stayin on the internet theres nuthin to do but go to chat and have sum guy say FLASH ME! im so fuckin bored Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 29th, 2003
7:36 pm	:: Pics that gunnar did and pics of gunnar and sum of my other friends! i really think this one is pretty i dunon im just weird like that ------------------- ------------------- kayt if u get on my journal thingy heres his lil pic site thingy http://bigfeetnv.tripod.com/pages/doodles.html ... okie yep.. check this out this proves im ugly! okie now if he saw that he would be HAVE HER FLASH ME..!! (kayt) she 1000000000000000000000000X pretty then me>.< i mean come on..that like comparing shit to a big ass diamond :P Its not even worth the comparision --- but such is life..it sucks dog balls ---- heres gunnar^.^ ---------- Current Mood: depressed Current Music: ICP-The Dating Game (totaly aproitate for this post) (Comment on this)
7:08 pm	:: Gunnar... OMG w0w what can i say bout gunnar he is the absoute perfect guy. hot, smart, artistic, and funny and he is so cute sum times... -=-=-=-= I was talkin to kayt and i was like you know what the first time he flashed me his nipple rings i was like thinking "god i really wanna bite him" i never really thought that way bout anyone before...i mean automatically when i saw his cam my jaw droped. Cause see like a week ago i saw the exact same person in my dream and they wer elike a vamp and instead i bit them and they fell inlove with me..its as a pretty trippy dream... -=-=-=-=-= And last night after i got off the internet i the same dream cept different i was lying in a bed and it was mounring and rolled over and put my arm on sumone and it was him he smiled at me then moved the hair outa my face and kises and and said good mourning baby then i woke i felt so calm in that deam-.- Of course he proly doesnt like me like that and prolly just wants me to flash him so >.< DAMN THE WORLD! Im confused and sleepy but imma stay up a couple hours later to see if i can catch him gettin back on... buh bye, MaybEJinglesAintSoSuicidalNotMore *embrasses smiley face* p.s. i was think u know all thoughs pics he draw i wounder what it would be like i fhe drew a pic of me.. Current Mood: infatuated Current Music: Happy Holidays Yuo Bastards - Blink 182 (Comment on this)
Friday, March 28th, 2003
7:56 am	:: COMPLETE HAPPYNESS blah! "i do anything for u" Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: She-Greenday (Comment on this)
5:55 am	:: EXTREMELY SUICIDAL BITCH COMIN THROUGH Hell..o again-_- Yea just thought i would tell everyone how my life is going to go! -=-=-=-=- well i figure that if i dont quiet smokin i could get cancer and die but thats not the only good part i could go to one of those make a wish foundations (if im still young when i get it) and say it was from second hand smoke and get free tickets to ozfest or some concert ill prolly die by 22 by suicide or smokin or drugs -=-=-=-=- WHY DOES EVERYONE CARE SO FUCKIN MUCH ITS NOT LIKE I COULD MAKE A GOOD GODAMN OF A DIFFERENCE IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN WORLD! I cant do anything but worry bout myself..im a selfish bastard ^.^ LALALALALALAL....w0w i really need sum kind of a drugs..maybe i could get sum speed or E i heard thats fun to od on... Godamn why am i so depressed :( I dont wanna be this way yet i find a certain kind of comfort in being this way...>. [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<hmmm...>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <i><font face="Verdana "> Hell..o again-_- Yea just thought i would tell everyone how my life is going to go! -=-=-=-=- well i figure that if i dont quiet smokin i could get cancer and die but thats not the only good part i could go to one of those make a wish foundations (if im still young when i get it) and say it was from second hand smoke and get free tickets to ozfest or some concert ill prolly die by 22 by suicide or smokin or drugs -=-=-=-=- WHY DOES EVERYONE CARE SO FUCKIN MUCH ITS NOT LIKE I COULD MAKE A GOOD GODAMN OF A DIFFERENCE IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN WORLD! I cant do anything but worry bout myself..im a selfish bastard ^.^ LALALALALALAL....w0w i really need sum kind of a drugs..maybe i could get sum speed or E i heard thats fun to od on... Godamn why am i so depressed :( I dont wanna be this way yet i find a certain kind of comfort in being this way...>.<hmmm... Maybe god will just kill me "accidentally", JinglesHungHimself@Hushmail.com ^^^^ my new email ^.^ go me</i> <b>"I lay quiet waiting for his vioce to say sumthing you lose and sumthing you just give away"</b> Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Happy Holidays You Bastards - Blink !82 (Comment on this)
5:39 am	::Lifes a Bitch Then i go to hell ...-.- Go KILL URSELF! Jingles GO KILL UR SELF! When life give u lemons make lemonade NOW when life gives u a knife kill the person next to u then slash ur wrists! Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: DAMNIT-Blink 182 (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 27th, 2003
8:59 am	:: IM SUCH A DUMBASS! i have decided not to post this post because of the harm it could do by fuckin up people relations ships so go me:'( bye Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Nirvana- Lithium (Comment on this)
8:45 am	:: Damn the bad luck... Lifes a bitch then ya die fuck the world lets go get high! I mean doesnt life just really suck big floppy donkey dick sum times>.< GODAMN IT ALL! buh bye, Jingles-GO FUCK UR SELF "The notes are old the bend they fold and so do i to a new love" All American Refects-Swing Swing Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: I feel so... - Boxcar racers (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 26th, 2003
11:15 am	::When life gives you shit and expects you to make lemonade...-.- Okie this is my new journal thingy mo bob Yay me! Yea umm if your reading this my life is pretty boring although it does have its moments so unless sumone has a gun to ur head making you read it then i would stop rite now cause MY LIFE SUCKS...but then again whoes doesnt at one point or another. -=-=-=-=-=-=-=- Mmkay got that covered...in other "news" Laura hates me causse i left her house early. No doubt she talked shit bout me at skool.But hey i dont go to that skool any more so go me! I dont gotta sit there and take shit from her no more yay me! -=-=-=-=-=-=-=- Ill write more later, JinglesHungHimself "Im so ugly but thats okie cause so r u we broke our mirrors"Nirvana-Lithium Current Mood: pessimistic Current Music: I hate myself and i want to die - Nirvana (Comment on this)